Psycho

Once I had a relationship with this guy, none that I have never imagine this would be just like nightmare for me. We were just tied up after once a (great) sex and stupid me it was just a bad things to tied up to someone just after (some) sex? It was still the very first time I came up in J-town and after like two weeks after I met up this guy who later on came by. Since I was in J-town I was supposed to have a lot of ONS here, yes a lot is a lot, in this point, so naïve that I can say quality and quantity is the considerations. =P. Yes I did something bad that I was about to cheated on him (but it never came up, not even I met this other guy)

As he found out, he was totally out of control and he beaten me up, left two scars on my left arms. Never have I imagined for a single time of life someone dare to abuse me with both physically and emotionally. I didn't have that "click" anymore with him, I was so tired to have relationship with someone like this guy. I was fault, but I was not even met the other guy, so just make it up, dude! Once some feel that the relationship is considered enough,it means enough. Enough to spend some cash for both of us, enough for always keep reporting things to him, enough to be party who always follow up what he wanted. What I said enough is really enough.

The good thing, all my family knows - finally about me - and so hard to see them in such condition, the best things, they supports me a lot to leave all stuffs and they still believe that my "royal prince" - that's what they call me - will be able to be back to normal then. I do hope so… (is it as easy as it might seen??)

The bad things are that: it seemed that this guy is still very annoying on me. It just feels that this guy is supposed not to be like psycho. He just keep annoying on me though I said it is enough to have this relationship. And he keeps bugging on me by keep phoning me (on my office phone), have me change some number to make him stop contact me, he even called me dog s*** for each time he angry to me and what I hate so much was some period right after he will just calm like nothing happened. I was just felt like hell to spend some time with him.

What the F*** does this kind of guy thinks? And unfortunately, I always somekind-a weak in case he start to begging. And for the rest of like one last month, I lost my sms and phone contact with him and it feels like heaven. Heavenly peace even though on some things I still feel kind a too scary everytime I get home and I usually like sneak up-to get in my own home!! What a scary things.. and the same happens if I get home from my own working office, this because he often just came up my place without any notice and once he wore a hat and followed me up from my office to my home.

Gosh!!!It’s so scary ……