Consierge Party

I opened the blog and knew there will be a G party to be held by this Saturday on F.bar EX, yes indeed, EX!!then I told to my self that I have to come!Followed up with the preparation and sent request to be in the guest list and got in for free. Definetely will consider to come!

I passed all my Saturday morning with vomits! I hate that! The burning alcohol level has overlimit my ody to receive and detoxed it, then I believed my braind sent a signal to threw that away by puked… Now I don't like drunk, this was how it felt and I barely kept my self not to vomit all day long until at around 6 TJ called me to accompany her on a friend wedding at Thamrin area. Well, the event still at 10, and I was totally starve, then I said yes to her.

A bit shaved up (I wished "something" happened to me) and long bath session, then I took my self on a cab to Thamrin. I met TJ wore beautiful black V-neck blouse and met some of her friends up there. (I was guessed as a Phillininese) hehe and then I met this cute guy "Zhong Guo Gege" type that I really like and barelty kept my eyes upon him and his fair smile. Maybe that leads them guessing whether I am queer and they asked TJ once I left to the restroom. Do I looked that gay for them? Or they have had some G friend, so that they easily to acknowledge as a queer?

And after we wait for quite sometime wait until time, then me and TJ decided to to got in. Then there I was. I was in the middle of consierge party! With all men up there. But I was just too jerk that I did not even try to know someone. TJ said some guys were checking on me, but I didn't feel that way, I saw some cute guys, but had no courage to get to them! What a jerk! Did I looked that lousy?? That not even some passed said Hi to me, get to know me as I am not kind a person who will see someone and say Hi first, but once other does, it wont be a bother for me. Promise!

And as predicted…
I went home alone..
What a stupid jerk… who is literally jerked on the night home..

20th Octoberfest - Aryaduta Hotel

Several days ago, I had an email from the Admin Departement that there will be 8 tickets to 20th Octoberfest given for free. I googled what Octoberfest is and found:

The Oktoberfest is a sixteen-day festival held each year in Munich, Bavaria, Germany during late September (and running to early October). It is one of the most famous events in the city and the world's largest fair, with some six million people attending every year, and is an enjoyable event with an important part of Bavarian culture. Other cities across the world also hold Oktoberfest celebrations, modeled after the Munich event.

Oktoberfestbiers are the beers that have been served at the event in Munich since 1818, and are supplied by 6 breweries known as the Big Six: Spaten, Löwenbräu, Augustiner, Hofbräu, Paulaner and Hacker-Pschorr.[1] Traditionally Oktoberfestbiers were the lagers of around 5.5 to 6% abv called Märzen - brewed in March and allowed to ferment slowly during the summer months.[2] Originally these would have been dark lagers, but from 1872 a strong March brewed version of an amber-red Vienna lager made by Josef Sedlmayr became the favourite Oktoberfestbier.

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The Munich Oktoberfest, traditionally, takes place during the sixteen days up to and including the first Sunday in October. In 1990, the schedule was modified in response to German reunification so that if the first Sunday in October falls on the 1st or 2nd, then the festival will go on until October 3 (German Unity Day). Thus, the festival is now 17 days when the 1st Sunday is October 2 and 18 days when it is October 1. The festival is held on an area named the Theresienwiese (field, or meadow, of Therese), often called d’ Wiesn for short.

Visitors also eat huge amounts of food, most of it traditional hearty fare such as Hendl (chicken), Schweinsbraten (roast pork), Haxn (knuckle of pork), Steckerlfisch (grilled fish on a stick), Würstel (sausages) along with Brezel (Pretzel)), Knödeln (potato or bread dumplings), Käsespätzle (cheese noodles), Reiberdatschi (potato pancakes), Sauerkraut or Blaukraut (red cabbage) along with such Bavarian delicacies as Obatzda (a fatty, spiced cheese-butter concoction) and Weisswurst (a white sausage).

Seems nice nice interesting, then I googled how much the ticket worth and found the ticket was sold at IDR 695,000!!
OK!! I have to sent confirmation that I want this free ticket so bad!!!

The day after, an email pop up in my inbox:
Hellow there…
Lucky you!!!
Congratulations!
Grab the tickets guys..
You know where I sit!
I won!!!! yeaaaah!! I won the tickets! I was about to go to this Bravarian events!

Friday eve, I started the day with a bit depression of these people in my office that they were still haven't done their task which I need to send immidiately since I have to left the office soon for preparing my self for the events, I loosen up and decided to go home, took some bath, and returned back to the office to finish my work pending on other's hands..
Finally, Job was finished and sent out, and I went to the event.. caught in a jam and once I arrived..

It was so very Germany! it was so Bravarian. We were welcomed with huge beer mug filled with foamy cold yummy beer teased me up to finished from the very first time. Everywhere I looked was foreign people who some of them wore traditional bravarian costumes. Nice! Along the corridors, there were food stalls which looked so delicious, I started up with Hendl (chicken), Schweinsbraten (roast pork), Haxn (knuckle of pork, a cute piglet bit an apple which is chopped by the cook), cheeses, etc etc, and end up with Weisswurst (white sausage boiled in chicken borth).

It was the first time I hang up in this athmosphere, the music (they flew Germanese band here), the repeated toast, the overflow delicious beers, the delicious wiener (i barely found another "wiener" there hehehe), the dance, the traditional set table, the people, those all so taken me to be in flow with the whole situation.

10.45 pm.. I barely count how much I drank, I felt lighter and started to stand up in the chair, danced, sang (juat humming those Bravarian Hey HO!!! songs), yelled, and drank more and more beer, and I guessing myself was tipsy when I came back from the restroom and felt that I loose my balance to walk, but i was back, climbed up the bench, and drank more beers.. until 12.30 am.. I decided to home since I knew i am drunk already (yeah!! call me lousy, that was the very first time I drunk and it was fun actually, hehehe)

As soon as i get in the taxi and pretend to all that I was OK and not high, I felt this silence came up that led me hum along the way back home. Home already.. I kinda felt all of things are funny and sleepy and just let me sleep....

Psycho part 2

This guy is totally out of his mind!!Last night I had like bunch of email pop uo im my inbox since I have not yet reply his messages, and within 9.15pm I replied back to him just saying that I was still busy working and he spoke as if he is my boyfriend, told me to go home since according to him it was already late. Geees, what the F*** is he thinking about? I have my own job to do, and still he wanted to take control on me on every single part of my life?

Before, he was totally pissed me of once again he send me a message as below:
HEH ANJING KENAPA WAKTU HARI JUMAT GUA TLP KE KANTOR LU GAK LU ANGKAT2 MPE PULUHAN KALI???!!! MAU CARI MASALAH LU MA GUA???!!! ATO LU MAU GUA KE JAKARTA KE KANTOR LU DAN GUA BENTAK2 LU DI DEPAN TEMAN2 LU ANJING???!!!

What the **** !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Is he out of his mind!I am no longer part of his life, just back off from me! Just leave me alone with my own control of my own!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Not a single word of him has supporting value. His is all about grumbling about life, snob, think that he is the most appropriate - kinda guy who: "If I don't have you then noone will". I'm not happy with him, so what does he think of my happiness? Living under his threat?

Now I hate everytime I open my inbox and see his message. I hate him! I would throw away his things saved in box under my bed! This morning he wanted me to swear that I have done nothing to deal with any other guys which I belive this would be just not working since he will surely again again will do the same thing

Bound to Relationship

Within the week, I had some conversation and discussion about relationship with my sister and TJ. Each has some serious problem with the relationship they have at present. TJ has her relation his BF (or what she called her future husbee) stuck in some point where no destination is appointed to. And as far as I got, all she wanted is only clear and distinct of what the relation took to – will it be a (happily ever after) marriage or just stand on this “status quo”? The problem arises when the BF seems very calm and just say: not even think in short glimpse of about marriage, while in the other hand, he convinced TJ that he is serious with her (doc.. in a sense of: lets be together for now and I have no idea of what will be happened next? Uhm… kinda remember me one scene of Desperate Housewife season 3?)

My sister has another problem with this lousy BF whom as my family judgments has not even a good quality of a good husbee. He has no good educational background (which luckily he passed) nor good business sense; he has no gentleman attitude who will put ladies on top of everything; he has no manner; no good grammatical and vocabulary (yes, understandable that it is really depends on your educational level); while he is really good at: Spending cash on car modifying and such things; salt water aquarium. Come on!! Depending of family wealth on 21st century is sooo not cool. So old fashioned. Own struggle instead, gives more satisfaction. Thanks God my sist has it done! She’s about to leave his lousy – old fashioned - spoiled – oxymoron BF for another prince rides white BMW S series out there.

How scary is it to be bound in relationship?

Good things of relationship:

1. You have someone who cares for you

2. You have surprise on your birthday

3. You have accompany while you’re going

4. (Great) sex

Bad – worse – worst things of relationship:

1. You have to take care of someone as well

2. You already know what kind of surprise prepared by your spouse on your birthday

3. You have no option to go with your spouse even you’re tired, bored

4. Lousy sex

5. Bad sex

6. Nightmare sex when sex still something fun for your spouse, but you think: “when will he finish…!!!”

7. You have to report everything, whom with – where – etc etc you go without your spouse

8. You can’t flirt someone cute with good full chest exactly in front of you

9. You are not allowed to go to gym!!

10. You can’t have another possible great sex(es) out there

11. You have texts come to your mobile every minutes – annoying!

12. And when no reply – there come the missed calls – more annoying!!

13. Still no reply – begin to call you office line as well – what the ****!!!

14. . . . (add) . . .

15. . . . (add) . . .

Well.. I think my list have it enough for me to confirm that I am not kinda serious relationship wannabe guy. Hehe.. Come on, there still lots of fishes out there aren’t they? Or maybe I just afraid with my status now, which I still not confirmed yet, and just focus with my career at present? Will the relationship last? What does the expectation? What if boredom syndrome came up? What if more dislike list made to the spouse? What if you have it enough to your spouse? What if as the time goes by, either you or your spouse find someone who is “click”er with? How to say goodbye?

Along my journey, I have recorded some guys for ONS, other become my sex buddies, and two relationships. When I am bounded into my first relationship: I was so much in love, but come the crazy thought from him to bound the relationship in papers, on the confirmed legal notice with witnesses – was he out of his mind!!! – and even he was trying to seek out the information about gay marriage on the internet, - what the **** did he thought about!!!!. I am not that open guy about my unconfirmed sexuality and he kept pushing me with those F***ing things? It was my luck that he caught cheated on me so I had good reason to break him up. The other “serious” relationship I had posted on “Psycho”. At present I have no plan seek for someone for any possible status mentioned above..

Hints: being single is a blessing since you can do almost everything you want without someone’s approval, you can just hang out everywhere, anytime, whoever with, whatever you do. Living you life is always choice, being single is as choice made. Just relax the territory you can own the whole piece, without none to shared with. Now..
How can I resist to be single and fabulous? =)

Psycho

Once I had a relationship with this guy, none that I have never imagine this would be just like nightmare for me. We were just tied up after once a (great) sex and stupid me it was just a bad things to tied up to someone just after (some) sex? It was still the very first time I came up in J-town and after like two weeks after I met up this guy who later on came by. Since I was in J-town I was supposed to have a lot of ONS here, yes a lot is a lot, in this point, so naïve that I can say quality and quantity is the considerations. =P. Yes I did something bad that I was about to cheated on him (but it never came up, not even I met this other guy)

As he found out, he was totally out of control and he beaten me up, left two scars on my left arms. Never have I imagined for a single time of life someone dare to abuse me with both physically and emotionally. I didn't have that "click" anymore with him, I was so tired to have relationship with someone like this guy. I was fault, but I was not even met the other guy, so just make it up, dude! Once some feel that the relationship is considered enough,it means enough. Enough to spend some cash for both of us, enough for always keep reporting things to him, enough to be party who always follow up what he wanted. What I said enough is really enough.

The good thing, all my family knows - finally about me - and so hard to see them in such condition, the best things, they supports me a lot to leave all stuffs and they still believe that my "royal prince" - that's what they call me - will be able to be back to normal then. I do hope so… (is it as easy as it might seen??)

The bad things are that: it seemed that this guy is still very annoying on me. It just feels that this guy is supposed not to be like psycho. He just keep annoying on me though I said it is enough to have this relationship. And he keeps bugging on me by keep phoning me (on my office phone), have me change some number to make him stop contact me, he even called me dog s*** for each time he angry to me and what I hate so much was some period right after he will just calm like nothing happened. I was just felt like hell to spend some time with him.

What the F*** does this kind of guy thinks? And unfortunately, I always somekind-a weak in case he start to begging. And for the rest of like one last month, I lost my sms and phone contact with him and it feels like heaven. Heavenly peace even though on some things I still feel kind a too scary everytime I get home and I usually like sneak up-to get in my own home!! What a scary things.. and the same happens if I get home from my own working office, this because he often just came up my place without any notice and once he wore a hat and followed me up from my office to my home.

Gosh!!!It’s so scary ……

FX Hangout

I had my office working hour for half day and supposed that I can leave the office by 12 pm, but i had something fun yet to do: create my first blog page.. yeaaaay.. i think that TJ has inspired me to have one because it seemed so fun to share your idea, your thought with fun way. then here I am creating something to my reader (i hope) hehe.I left my office by 2 pm then.

The first idea came up in my mind for my first post in my virgin blog was my BB B'day today - that I made it more memorable by creating my blog as well - that allready posted before.

Now I am in FX with my sister and the BF & sibling (urrgh-how i hate them) to have so sneak peek on Adrenaline Slide (I have conquer my fear to slide in the slider with TJ and HB last Friday) hehehe... I would insist my sist to slide in as well right after this. hehe

I just remember that last Friday we had our slide and we were having so much fun!Me and TJ were scared to death before jump in the tunnel. Whatever whatsover, we have to jump and..... we did..Within 12 seconds, my adrenaline was beated. within 12 seconds, all the fear was turned to be fun, and yes we completed the slide with laugh and discussion of what a fun experience we had.

BB's birthday

September 30th is my BB's Birthday who I have know like 12 years of my life, who is not a friend of mine, but a brother indeed.

Flashback … How awkward if I remember the very first time I met him since we were in the same JHS-best and famous one in town- when he was in E class and mine was F, not a single conversation at that time, but I acknowledged him as “someone cute” who always hung out with girls on the break time (I was the same as him as well with both of my mistresses: Nadine and Crystal). And.. finally we were end up in the same HS-another best and famous one in town, course-and then we have some time together (regardless how we had the first conversation) and we were be friend just like that. Not a single day we had without hung out with the another fruit members we had – 8 or 10 of us – and it took so much fun spent your teenage period with bunch of friends.

BB and Ethan used to: play DDR machines ‘till dawn on the game center – and would appreciate that he’s so much better than me; puzzle bubble matches; dinner together; stars seeing; pick him up for a friend’s b’day party; practiced the polonaise dances; swimming; shopping; sunbathing; my first on road car drive lesson (yes he did patiently picked me up every night just to gave on road car drive lesson); one birthday present and card given on the school parking area; sharing secret; nope just hang out and share; drive me around town in his busy time and he would still spare some time to me…Now as I moved away to J-town and barely never meet him anymore, I had a plan to bought him something in his bday since not a single bday I have ever gave him any present, then last week at Sept 20th, I went to FX and i bought him something. It was just a set of Men Grooming package in zipped black leather pouch which I showed to TJ, she said its kinda too gayish. What the ....I don’t care lah. I have delivered the package two days before.

Text quoted once he received the package - translated
Ethan, I have received the package.
Thanks a lot! can't wait 'till 30 hehe.
Really thanks that you gave me this kind of gift ....

and i text him this morning,
Good morning BB, how was your sleep last night?
Sheng ri kuai le..
Happy birthday for you..
Praying the best for you..
Your career, you life, your love as well.
Have a great fun-new 23 years young age.
I just believe he might be busy with all people celebrates him (fame works at this point for my handsome BB). And I believe that he will enjoy this day. noone will ever let him have one-one bday as I usually have , fiuuuuh..

4.57 pm.. my BB sent me a text

Thanks Ethan!

Btw, I have opened your gift.

Cool, I have just know this is very complete.

Really thank you.

Have just waked up. Having a sore throat, I saw a doctor yesterday

BB is the one who always care for me; the one very busy contacted everyone he knew for temporary place to stay on the very first time I came to J-town; the one who came at 12 am on my house just to chat with me when I’m back to my hometown because he afraid that he wouldn’t have another time to see me; the one who is angrier than me once my family got threatened; the one who doesn’t feel ashamed to share emotions with; the one who I always be ready to count on.However… Do I always be there for him? It seemed that I haven’t done him good enough. I am still so selfish that maybe he still unable to tell me like everything happened to him. If just I can be there within that moments, that would be fair enough for me to have such a brother like him, not that I meant to be consider what he’s done to me is something have to be paid off in this way, but I just feel bad for him. If just anything – anything I could do for him, I would take that for my BB. Gosh…. For once again I have louse though that (luckily) gave me idea to write this on.