Mine Your own (Financial) Business

I got head bang on my head last night when i sum all my bills on my "dear" credit cards and they have appeared of 8 digits figure. Almost 10 mio's they are.

Shoot!! Masa sih beneran gue yang pake itu semua? But I think I did not spend that much. I just bought some discounted stuffs waktu jalan jalan. Ngga banyak, dan really worth to buy for such price. Tapi.. Masih ngga yakin dan ngga percaya dengan fakta 8 digits itu..

Let's check out and see the stuffs I bought the last month: uhmm.. Airline tickets Singapore great sale: baju G2000, baju Guess, perfume Calvin Klein, baju lagi, baju lagi, NEXT Ties, Sledger Shoes, Black Reebok Gym Shoes, another shopping time at Bandung Factory Outlet, my new Mobile Phone, 50% off mega food promo that I actually cannot affords, but overall.. I did swap my cards for all of them..

The problem.. How to deals with them all? Saking shocknya gue sampe sms TJ and ganggu kelas dia semalem and bener bener lemes. I am young, fabulous, and confirmed Financially broke. Gimana gue bisa bayar hutang yang 8 digits itu sedang gaji gue aja not even a half of them?

Dan bayangin kalo I will keep spending more by next travels to Sin, to Sin-BKK, and not to mention Vietnam and or Philliphines?
How can I finance all of my fabulus trips? How can I cover the fees?
Really cannot tell this to anyone.

I was only tell to TJ and I just don't want to make her worry too much about me, them she will take care of me "extremely" hahaha.. Ngga enak aja, gue ngga mau sampe kayak gitu. She's all I have to share this. But this is what is on my plate, and I as the owner have to take care of them, no matter how, for how long, I will have to be able to take care of them. Let me save my cards for temporary moments, resting them for a while, and pay my debs gradually. Hope that this will make me grow up

What make me actually spend that much?
I might not really need those all, but I love the time when search for something fancy, worth on price that regularly I would not be able to spend, then definetely I would swap my cards for them. And then, once I bring them on the big - new - shopping bag, I will be so happy to bring them home. Let me remember for some moments.. How many time I always be home and have to bring "something" on my shopping bags weight for about 4KGs?

Yang bikin tambah kesel, BB, appan sih, gue berniat cerita udah diketawain, ngga lucu tahu!
I have this debt stranggle me on, and he just laugh at me? Bener bener deh dissapointed sama dia semalem, udah gitu pake cerita ke HK kalo dia bete banget ngga ketemu gue pas kemarin gue pulang ke rumah? Well, I know you, and yet you can't even spare 30 minutes to see me where we have not see each other for the last 8 months? Come on.. Had it enough sama offense nya dia kadang. Or is it me who are so offense to him? Gue kan Cuma pengen cerita, ngga bakal hutang kok! I told you this is my own problem. Entahlah.. Keburu bete deh gue.

Lots coming up in my mind, have none to talk about, have no escape

(hey!!! I know... I used to shop to run away from my loneliness!!!!)
I browse the whole shopping malls on weekends because I have nothing to do, have no friends to go with, urrrrhg.. That could be one of the reason.

plus bayar late fee Mega Cards gue - IDR 75,000! shoot!! kok bisa lupa sih!!
back to work.. udah cukup ngomel pagi ini, sebelum gue jadi tante tante grumppy yang ngga asyik and bikin mood gue hilang.. hihihihi