I'm totally cracked up.. broken, and .. shattered

and there it goes again..
I feel like I'm cracked up..
I'm broke
and I just about to shattered..

I miss him again today

Him, the one at Bandung..

even I know he would never feel the same way
even I know he will never be mine

ARRRRGGH!!

Pengen banget ngomel hari ini. Semuanya ngga bener.
I am totally sick of today!!
All in sudden I hate my self, I hate my work, I hate my mates. I hate what I am doing, I just... TIRED... I just want to have someone to share all of this load with.

Noone knows..
Noone to share with..
Noone would even care..

and I begin to feel tired... and numb..

I miss you so much this morning..

Crush..
by David Archuletta

I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time
Deep inside
It was a rush
What a rush
'Cause the possibility
That you would ever feel the same way
About me
It's just too much
Just too much
Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized
So mesmerized
And I've just got to know

Do you ever think
When you're all alone
All that we could be?
Where this thing could go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it really just another crush?
Do you catch a breath
When I look at you?
Are you holding back
Like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying, trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't going
Away
Going away

Has it ever crossed your mind
When we're hanging,
Spending time, girl, are we just friends
Is there more
Is there more
See it's a chance we've gotta take
'Cause I believe that we can make this
Into something that'll last
Last forever
Forever

Why do I keep running from the truth
(Why do I keep running)
All I ever think about is you
(All I ever think about)
You got me hypnotized
(Hypnotized)
So mesmerized
(mesmerized)
And I've just got to know

I miss my handsome Hen Hen.
yet this is just a crush - or just what so ever it called.

More Bills to Come

"Permisi Pak"
OB gue taruh sebuah amplop biru dari BRI.
More bills to come. Fiuh..

Open it!! Open it!!
You have your guts to swap your card
You have your brave to open the bills

1… 2…
2…
Ngga berani!!
2…
3…
2 juta!!!!
Shocked…

Beli apa aja sih?
Shopping gue waktu ke Malaysia bulan kemarin, baru masuk sekarang bills nya
Ticket ke Singapore July 19-21 (hihihihi.. Katanya bangkrut kok malah ke SIN),
Cicilan tiket ke Bangkok bulan August nanti,
2 biji Dasi NEXT yang masing masing baru dipake sekali,
Traktir orang rumah waktu pulang kemarin,
Beli Lmen and toilettries stock sebulan..
Kok gitu doank 2 juta sih?

Magic (Evil) Shopping Card

Back from the Lunch with TJ and find two envelopes I know the best:
1. the green and white envelope from Bank Mandiri, just to inform that I have limit balance that I can do nothing about.
2. the blue envelope, printed with Merlion, UOB's best Singapore Card.
Shocked.. I have IDR 3,2 mios on my bills that have to be paid by this July 16th.
My sister tried to swap the card yesterday and she got rejected on proceed the transaction.
How am I supposed and be able to pay for this?
And the next another one hour, I get Phone Call from Bank Bumi Putera offering Credit Card, and I have said yes to those guys…
I hate my self more and more.
I keep spending
I keep shopping,
I keep pretending that I can afford those things

Sekali Parasit Tetap Parasit

Petir membangunkan ku
Dari mimpi buruk ku
Selama ini ku hanya terperangkap
Dalam medan magnetmu

Baru kusadari
Kau seperti parasit
Minta ini itu kau minta padaku
Dengan semau mu
Cukup sudah ku kini mulai gerah
Ku perlu oksigen untuk aku bernafas
Tanpamu

Pergi kau keujung dunia
Dehidrasi di gunung sahara
Hilang di segitiga bermuda (segitiga bermuda)
Pergi kau keluar angkasa
Hipotermia di kutub utara
Hilang di samudra antartika
Dan jangan kembali (parasit parasit parasit parasit)
Kau memang parasit (parasit parasit parasit parasit)

Mulanya malu-malu
Lalu jadi benalu
Minta ini itu kau minta padaku
Dengan semau mu

Cukup sudah ku mulai naik darah
Ku seperti bom atom yang siap meledak
Karnamu

Pergi kau keujung dunia
Dehidrasi di gunung sahara
Hilang di segitiga bermuda (segitiga bermuda)
Pergi kau keluar angkasa
Hipotermia di kutub utara
Hilang di samudra antartika
Dan jangan kembali ah..

Pergi kau keujung dunia
Dehidrasi di gunung sahara
Hilang di segitiga bermuda
Dan jangan kembali (parasit parasit)
Kau memang parasit (parasit parasit)

Minta dibayarin (parasit parasit)
Minta ditraktirin (parasit parasit)
Minta dianterin (parasit parasit)
Minta dijemputin (parasit parasit)
Minta ditelponin (parasit parasit)
Minta di sms-in (parasit parasit)
Minta dibeliin (parasit parasit)
Minta dibayarin (parasit parasit)
Minta ditraktirin (parasit parasit)
Minta dianterin (parasit parasit)
Minta dijemputin (parasit parasit)
Minta ditelponin (parasit parasit)
Minta di sms-in (parasit parasit)
Minta dibeliin (parasit parasit)
Dasar kau parasit